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Ashwin wrote..

I had the longest phone conversation with Ashwin the other day. I was supposed to call him, but he insisted to call instead. Talked hell of a lot of things. He writes mean stuff. I mean neat, though he tends to be a leetle bit on the bitter side. But he's neat. I can't find the others. Yet.

The Angel Song

My dearest Angel Yang,
You're the light in my myesy life
Without you by my side,
I would rather die;
For you're the answer to my prayers
You're the reason I am here
You take away my darkest fears
You are my life
And you are my saviour
You are my angel in the night

Angel Yang, oh, Angel Yang
Walk with me 'till the end of time
Angel Yang, oh, Angel Yang
Ring my bell and play my chime
Angel Yang, oh, Angel Yang
Please hold my hand 'till the end of time
Angel Yang, oh, Angel Yang
(I) love you more than I thought I can

You give me light and hope
In all my darkest hours
I thank you so my darling love
For loving me
You're my pride for the world to see
When you're away
How I long for you
I cannot live without you
Standing by my side
For you are my better half

VYSIA

Once...
I was down
I was dead
I was torn
With so much hate
And then she came
She saved my life
She gave me soul
She gave me life

Angel Yang from up above
The light in my dark
My reason to live
The cure from my pain
The Beauty within
An angel so sweet
So selfless and kind
Angel Yang, oh, Angel Yang

She's beautiful
She's wonderful
She's all I want
She's all I need
She's my elixir
And my panacea
She's Godsent
She's all pure

Her love's so sweet
It melts (me) to my feet
Her soft warm touch
Like the morning breeze
She takes me there
She brings me home
I cannot live
Without her smile

CRADLE OF PAIN

My heart's so broke, my soul's so torn
She left me here, she's far and gone
I want to run, I want an end
I need her smile, I need a friend
I'm lost in pain, I'm goin' insane

I miss you, love
I miss you, love
I miss you, love
I miss you, love
I miss you, love
I miss you, love

Were all your words merely lies
I'm drowning in (my) lonesome cries
You're with the man you left before
I'm dying here, sprawled on the floor
I've lost the will, I cannot feel

May you find happiness
May you find blissfullness
All I want is to be your friend
For you to hold and also to lend a hand
May you find happiness
May you find blissfullness

LOVE'S SWEET SORROW

You're the reason, I'm the reason, I'm still alive today
You only grow more beautiful with every passing day
Oh my darling won't you tell me that you will surely stay
You gave me meaning, gave me reason, you showed me the right way

But now you've left me for another and I'm on my own
But I'm happy to see you happy though I'm all alone
Thank you darling for those times when my mind you had blown
I'm going crazy longing for you, can you hear me groan?

Since you left I've been a mess, I'm better off just dead
Masochistic, I'm lying here with thorns on my bed *this is one of my favorite lines*
Plagued and sickened by those bloody voices in my head
I cannot function, I cannot sleep, I got this funny walking gait

Here I sit writing this song, trying to get over you
First comes love and then comes pain, there's nothing I can do
All I hope for my skies to one day become blue
Will you mend my heart if I were to give you some glue?

::xoxoxo:: 7:01 PM

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jbasil: lets go to a happy place and have sex.
brice: hahahaha
brice: john, i might put that in my blog
brice: lol
jbasil: hahaha
jbasil: go ahead
brice: i will too
brice: lol
jbasil: I only say it because I mean it
jbasil: :p
brice: ;o
jbasil: *hugs*
jbasil: :)
brice: *HUGS*
brice: thats how you hug someone

That was how my short conversation with John went last nite. Seriously non-productive. Maybe I'm retarded.

::xoxoxo:: 4:45 PM

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neat

I found this on the computer. Somebody probably put it here few days ago. I just thought I'd put this up. *shrug*

What else can you say when you win your second Oscar?
"I'm just a girl from a trailer park with a dream." -Hilary Swank
Unfortunately, for those watching this snore of an Oscar cast (was it me, or did there only seem to be five movies nominated?), Ms. Swank thought of so much to say they had to shoo her off the stage with music cues.

Force is all conquering, but its victories are short-lived. -Abraham Lincoln

To me, fair friend, you never can be old, For as you were whenfirst your eye I ey'd, Such seems your beauty, still(Sonnet 104)-William Shakespeare

We would often be sorry if our wishes were gratified. -Aesop

Smile well and often. It makes people wonder what you've been up to. -Satchel Paige

The easiest way for your children to learn about money is for you not to have any.-Katharine Whitehorn

Darkness cannot drive out darkness; only light can do that. Hate cannot drive out hate; only love can do that. -Martin Luther King, Jr.

Facts do not cease to exist because they are ignored.-Aldous Huxley

Whatever you can do, or dream you can, begin it. Boldness has genius, power and magic in it. -Goethe

Prophecy is many times the principal cause of the events foretold. -Thomas Hobbes

Home is the place where, when you have to go there, they have to take you in.-Robert Frost

It is good to have money and the things that money can buy, but it's good, too, to check up once in a while and make sure you haven't lost the things that money can't buy.-George Horace Lorimer

Anything too stupid to be spoken is sung.-Voltaire

The multitude of books is making us ignorant.-Voltaire

I am not a teacher but an awakener.-Robert Frost

In memorium, Vic Sussman (1939-2004). Friend, husband, father, author, editor, broadcaster, iconoclast and Internet pioneer. He spoke truth to power.
Thanks to John M for sharing this quote.

A little patience, and we shall see the reign of witches pass over, their spells dissolve, and the people, recovering their true sight, restore their government to its true principles. It is true that in the meantime we are suffering deeply in spirit, and incurring the horrors of a war and long oppressions of enormous public debt.... If the game runs sometimes against us at home we must have patience till luck turns, and then we shall have an opportunity of winning back the principles we have lost, for this is a game where principles are at stake. (1798 after passage of the Alien and Sedition Act) -Thomas Jefferson

Yes, the quote this week is rather long winded but then Jefferson lived in the age of pen, not the television, and so was not enslaved by the sound byte.
Success is not final, failure is not fatal: it is the courage to continue that counts.-Winston Churchill

It's not the voting that's democracy; it's the counting.-Tom Stoppard

If you cannot convince them, confuse them. -Harry S. Truman

Believe those who are seeking the truth. Doubt those who find it. -Andre Gide

Reality cannot be ignored except at a price; and the longer the ignorance is persisted in, the higher and more terrible becomes the price that must be paid.
-Aldous Huxley

"It's all right to lack convictions than to be blind to your mistakes"
- Ashley Brice.

::xoxoxo:: 2:23 PM

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Today in history (...)

Apr 18 1955
Nobel Prize recipient Albert Einstein dies in his hospital bed from a ruptured aortic aneurysm. Seven hours later, his brain is plunked into a jar of formalin and taken away by the pathologist. It will remain missing for 23 years.

I found out about the site from Leo. It's really neat.

::xoxoxo:: 11:21 PM

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His birthday.

It's his 27th birthday today. I thought about calling him, but considering the condition of my phone, I changed my mind. Besides, I don't know if he'd appreciate it or would just be plain rude to me - like last time. Of course, he didn't know then that it was me. And I have changed my phone number, but after all these years, he still has that effect on me. I saw him (or thought I did) two years ago and my heart just skipped a thousand beat. It must've been him, since it had that effect on me. I might sms him another later, and hopefully he gets it. 11 years and he still melts me. Tyler said, "Time to move on?"
But I guess I am too much of a wuss to do so. I do not know if I am still in love with him. Or whatever. But he's still here. He still has that effect on me.
Happy Birthday, Love.

::xoxoxo:: 12:40 PM

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I don't know what happened.

I am so darn sleepy but I still have some work to do. Ain't that sucks. I spent 10 minutes writing (okay, typing) for the first entry and it just vanished (BEFORE I could save it). I've finally decided not to go for the movie. I'd just apologize to Peter later.
I don't understand one thing, though. I answered a question but the answer appeared for the a different question. I must've messed up something. I am new at this anyway.
Hungry. Time to eat something (at last).

::xoxoxo:: 10:07 AM

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a peachy.

<+littlelittle> u're back
<+littlelittle> sandman?
<@`Des> yeah... been awhile
<@`Des> yep.. to help with the insomnia
<+littlelittle> i think the problem might be psychological
<@`Des> can be rectified
<+littlelittle> hopefully
<@`Des> I s'pose you do have an idea as to the underlying cause
<+littlelittle> that's the thing. I don't, really.
<@`Des> could it be physiological then ?
<+littlelittle> could be both *sigh*
<@`Des> good way to lose weight tho'
<+littlelittle> but something's nagging. seriously nagging at my guts.
<+littlelittle> ah, rite. i've been losing major appetite
<@`Des> pain.... feeling... instinct..??
<+littlelittle> this isn't good, thou.
<@`Des> don't sound good alright
<+littlelittle> because i don't lose appetite. not with foods.
<+littlelittle> so when i do, there's got to be some major screw up
<@`Des> depression maybe?
<+littlelittle> i'm afraid to even utter the word
<@`Des> gawd! sound suspiciously like it
<@cOLesLow_sEpihrOth^_^> zzzzzz
<@`Des> you could try borrowing some of cOLesLow_sEpihrOth^_^ 's zzzzzzz :p
<+littlelittle> you're scaring me
<@`Des> I'm sorry lil'
<@`Des> but it does sound bad tho'
* +littlelittle sighs
<+littlelittle> and if u notice my obsession with the word 'little'
<@`Des> has it anything to do with recent happenings ?
<+littlelittle> i used it more than a hundred times for my nicks already
<+littlelittle> i am not really sure. that's the thing.
<+littlelittle> i can't really figure it out.
<@`Des> shows how low your self esteem has gotten :(
<+littlelittle> aih~
<+littlelittle> i'm scared now
<@`Des> chin up lil' ... it can't get any lower. Just believe in yourself
<+littlelittle> thanks. you're a peach. it can, thou. but i'd rather not dwell on that
<@`Des> time's a great healer
<+littlelittle> i s'pose.
< +littlelittle> hope it helps.
<@`Des> so how d'you kill those waking hours ?
<+littlelittle> i read. i play with my little yellow ball. watch tv. i do all sorts of things i can find in my room.
<+littlelittle> but i never did get to do the one thing i wanted to do. re-decorate.
<@`Des> good way to distract'em thoughts I'd say
<@`Des> how'd you plan on the decor ?
<+littlelittle> yeah. i just wish i could really get around to decorating.
<+littlelittle> i have no idea as yet. my room's darn small. and i mean small.
<@`Des> hmm.. you can prolly start with moving furnitures ;)
<+littlelittle> can't do. the arrangement at the moment is the best i could get to have some free space.
<@`Des> renting eh?
<+littlelittle> yerp
<+littlelittle> that's another depressing thought.
<@`Des> urg! I know how it is
<@`Des> what's the charges like ?
<+littlelittle> little less reasonable
<+littlelittle> but it's okay.
<@`Des> if it's near your place of work then that would make up for it
<+littlelittle> it's near the college. as you know, it takes the priority.
<@`Des> mhmm
<+littlelittle> otherwise mom would kill me
<+littlelittle> and then bring me back to clean up the mess. haha.
<@`Des> thought you're on semester break now?
<+littlelittle> we dont actually have semester break.
<@`Des> oh..ok
<+littlelittle> heh.
<@`Des> gets kinda confusing after a while :p
<+littlelittle> desy: i know. that's why most times i dont bother talking to others abt college.

That was as far as it got. And then I got distracted. I am very bad at keeping a conversation going. Neat.

::xoxoxo:: 9:10 AM

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It rains.

It's raining now. I've been sitting in front of the computer for.. 4 hours 7 minutes and 45 seconds. 46.. 47.. 48... 49.. 50.. 51.. 52.. 53.. 54.. 55.. 56.. 57.. 58.. 59.. and 5 Hours!!
Big deal. I just realised that I have a more serious sleeping problem. Lately. Maybe Psychological. Or maybe it's just the hormones. I realised I am afraid to go to sleep at night. Not afraid, afraid. More like, I feel like if I go to sleep, I'd miss out on something huge. Something major. Talk about paranoid.
I still have some major re-decorating job to do with my room. I am not even halfway through. I have to find out what exactly is it that I have been so darn busy with that I am not getting enough sleep yet not getting any work done either. JJ said I should go see a shrink. Actually, he said, "I think you should seek some help." Which sounds worse. To me, that is. A friend suggested seeking the sandman to help with my insomnia. I do have great friends after all.

::xoxoxo:: 8:56 AM

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seriously.

I gave up on the photos. Adk was giving me ajaran sesat. I tried for a while but it just won't work with me. So whatever.

::xoxoxo:: 7:43 AM

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My Results

Extraversion
Some people like lots of stimulation; they want people around them, activity and excitement, whilst others prefer to be able to focus on things in a calm and quiet environment. Most people prefer a blend of the two extremes and your answers suggest that you are quite comfortable in either situation. You can probably cope with things being a bit hectic or a bit quiet but, like most people, you may find extremes in either direction uncomfortable or annoying.

Confidence
Some people make decisions very easily and tend not to worry about them before or afterwards while, at the other extreme, some people are so careful and cautious that the decisions never get made! Taking a cautious approach can be a good thing (do you want to fly with a pilot that is so free from worry and concern that she never checks her controls and instruments and doesn't bother to communicate with air-traffic control?) and you seem to have described yourself as someone who does tend to be quite cautious and careful. This can be very important in detailed work or areas were mistakes can have a major cost although you may find yourself avoiding risks and many cautious people wish they were bolder.

Openness
While some people like experimenting with new things and ideas, others prefer traditional methods and taking a very practical approach to problems.
Your answers suggest that you may be reluctant at times to consider new approaches and ways of doing things, but that you understand the value of tried and proven methods and of lessons that have already been learnt.

Agreeableness
Most people want to be able to get on with others but to some it is the most important thing in the world, whilst others are quite happy to upset someone else if it means that things get done.
Your answers suggest that you can be firm with people when you need to be but that getting on with others is still important to you. Like most people you would rather avoid conflict but are not prepared to put up with being treated badly by others.

Conscientiousness
Some people like everything to be well planned, tidy and organised, whilst others prefer to deal with things as they come up and appear to work in absolute chaos.
Your answers suggest that you don't like having things too structured or being tied down and you can cope quite well without having to have everything organised. This may make it hard to find things at times or for colleagues to know where you are or what you are doing, but you probably find coping with the unexpected (the things your colleagues didn't plan for!) easier than many.

::xoxoxo:: 7:18 AM

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