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Sunday, February 01, 2009

RE: I think I like someone


Yeah.. turned out.. it was just a phase. Cause I met someone and this time it's different even from the 'Colgate' phase. I even got his picture on my phone, and my computer. And his name for my profile =) and yeah.. all those signs in the previous post. Hehe.


::xoxoxo:: 10:30 PM

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In love


Okay.. I did a google on "Signs you're in love" and so far, I checked these:

1. You’re in love if you think about them all of the time.

Well yah, I didn’t say that everything on this list would be profound or anything. This one is a no-brainer. If you love someone, they’re going to be in your thoughts all the time. In fact, you won’t be able to get them out of your head. Look at the rest of the indicators before coming to a conclusion, though, because this one could also mean that you’re just plain nuts.

2. You’re in love if everything reminds you of them.

Someone asks you to pass the ketchup and it reminds you of them. A flock of geese fly overhead and it reminds you of them. You get the picture. Oh, and for some reason, when you’re in love it seems like every new person you meet or see on TV or hear a story about has the same name as the person you’re in love with. I don’t know why that is, it just happens.

3. You’re in love if you start caring more about your own appearance.

Suddenly, without warning, you find yourself wanting to actually iron the wrinkled jeans that have been sitting in the dryer for the last three days before you wear them. If you’re about to see that person who you can’t get out of your mind, there suddenly seems to be a whole lot of reflective surfaces around to check yourself out in.

4. You’re in love if you’re actually interested in knowing more about them.

You can forget about the days when you went home from a date remembering absolutely nothing about the interests, career and dreams of the person you went out with. Finding out all about this fantastic person is your new favorite thing to do. If you could find a book detailing every minute detail of their life, you wouldn’t sleep or eat until you read every last paragraph.

5. You’re in love if you want to impress them.

You’ve always tried to be modest, but suddenly you feel like you’re a politician fighting to win the most important election ever in the history of the universe. You make sure that the faded newspaper article about you winning your third-grade spelling bee is left nonchalantly on the coffeetable when they come to visit. And you keep them as far as possible from that great aunt who loves to tell all of the embarrassing stories about you.

6. You’re in love if you aren’t as tight with your money or time anymore.

There was a time when the idea of shelling out your hard-earned money to buy someone dinner or a gift would have horrified you. Sure, you would buy an occasional round for your friends or bring grandma flowers on her birthday, but spending any more money than absolutely necessary just wasn’t going to happen. But now, no price seems too high as long as it makes that special someone happy.

7. You’re in love if hanging out with your friends just isn’t as appealing any more.

Remember when you and your friends made fun of the former buddy who ditched your gang to hang out with their new boyfriend or girlfriend? And when the thought of abandoning your friends to spend time with a member of the opposite sex seemed like sacrelige? Well you can try to deny it all you want, but you’re finding yourself constantly thinking about being with that special someone . . . even when you’re surrounded by your buddies!

8. You’re in love if commitment is actually starting to sound like something you could stand.

What, you commit to something that requires you to be faithful and responsible? Oh, the horror! What strange, evil spell has been cast upon you that would actually make you excited about a long-term relationship or even marriage with someone? Did someone slip something into your drink? Are you going insane? No. You’re probably in love, knucklehead.

9. You’re in love if you just aren’t noticing other members of the opposite sex.

Oh, the people you used to stare at are still there . . . you just aren’t noticing them anymore. For some bizarre reason, that special someone has suddenly become infinitely more attractive to you than any other person on the face of the planet. People who you used to think were good-looking suddenly pale in comparison to the one you’ve found yourself falling in love with.

Source: www.romancetracker.com


::xoxoxo:: 10:15 PM

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Saturday, November 08, 2008

I think I like someone.


There's someone I like. Well, I think I like him. I've known him for quite a while. I am not sure if this is just a stupid crush, or a rebound thing, or because I'm lonely, or merely because he's around, real (as opposed to all my anime crushes LOL), and available. Well, I think he's available. I never asked. Not outright. He confuses me at times, though. Sometimes, it looks like he likes me. And sometimes, I think I really like him. Other times, I feel like I couldn't care less. Sometimes I miss him. Other times, I feel like I've had enough. The good thing is, he knows I exist. And yes, we are friends. But here's the thing with me. For years, I've only liked (or wanted) someone I know I cannot have. So yeah, I think I like him, but probably only because I know he won't like me back. But maybe I really do like him. Like 'Colgate'. Well, no, I don't like him as much as I like 'Colgate'. But yeah, I like him.
I think I like him.

Disclaimer: No prizes for solving the riddle! XD



::xoxoxo:: 4:42 AM

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Tuesday, July 08, 2008

A dose of Daughtry


How is it possible that people who love each other just can't be together? My guess is that it's never meant to be in the first place. Life works in a funny way. It takes you in, turns you upside down, breaks you up and just leave you out in the cold.
What doesn't kill you makes you stronger, eh. Funny.

Bridges by Lifehouse

I'ts such a shame to let this go to waste
There's little time left here for saving face
We tried to put a bandage on these years
I know this isn't what you want to hear
You can say what you like
Pass the blame I don't mind because

We both lit the match that burned the bridge
We both lit the match and watched our bridges burn down

Our common ground was broken long ago
What slipped thru the cracks
I fear we'll never know
I'll walk you thru the graveyard of my mind
Show you a love that I buried alive

Cuz we both walked away
Who was wrong, who's to say I know

We both lit the match that burned the bridge
We both lit the match and watched our bridges burn down


A few years ago, I found this lovely piece somewhere on the net.

Haunted Lullaby by Orions Moon

Endless tears fall like rain tonight
as the hour grows dark and I
think of the bitter past

and the memories

you haunt.


Passing through

the silver mirror of fate,

the impossible reflection darkens

to let only ashes of who we used to be

seep through the endless cracks of sorrow.


I am bound to this world of pain by a tie that twists and cuts

my soul, leaving it to bleed crimson rivers

of agony and loss.


Here, I feel all the heartache I hold

manifest into darkened shadows,
gracefully dancing
to a haunted lullaby
that only hold the visions of a past I left behind.



.. the Crying Imperfection..



::xoxoxo:: 7:07 AM

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Friday, June 27, 2008

Naruto Personality Test : Which Evil Naruto Character Are You?


NarutoFever.com


Sports Cars and Itachi
Your results are in! You're the coolest evil guy in our book! At 13, you became chief of the Konoha ANBU team and killed your entire clan save your little brother. You're an extrememly dangerous wanted S-class criminal and a member of the Akatsuki organisation. Shrouded with mystery, you are the intriquing Uchiha Itachi.

In real life you are probably a cool sports car salesman. You are likely to drive a BMW 330Ci, a Subaru WRX or whatever sports car that reeks of sleekness. Sitting behind the wheel of your sports car, you race through the streets in quiet confidence. Whatever your job is, you always look good and you have an affinity with sharks. However, you hate your family.
Likely occupations: (Sports Car Dealer)
Sports car dealer
BMW salesman
Ferrari F1 racer
Sports car engine designer
Pilot

^-^
Also taken at Naruto Fever. I'm so cool even when I'm evil LOL


::xoxoxo:: 1:22 AM

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My True Love


NarutoFever.com Love Compatibility Test



I took this Love Compatibility Test at Naruto Fever and it tells me my true love is Hatake Kakashi! Talk about dream comes true? Haha.

Well, dreams can come true, but first, you got to have them ^-^


::xoxoxo:: 1:05 AM

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Wednesday, March 26, 2008

Be the change you want to see in the world.


Earlier this week I noticed they've put up a 'Wishing Well' at the main lobby. But I've been too busy to make a stop. My first thought was that it must've been one of their money-making schemes (heh) because from what I've understood, wishing well is a place where you make a wish (and hoping it would come true someday). Yesterday afternoon, however, I had some spare time so I decided to take a look. The first thing my eyes fell on was the line on the signboard that says "INTI Project... bla bla bla". I almost left because I smugly thought that my assumption was correct. And then I noticed the banner on the left and turned to read. I almost slapped myself silly. Ha. Ha. It was a charity project to help the Sarawak Children Cancer foundation (or was it Society). Bah. I shed a tear.

Amidst all the fuss about the 'new government' issues everywhere in this 'new nation', humanity still exists. It touched me. Personally I think it's about time the people of this country focus on what is more important than their own personal agenda. Everybody (well, if you're not among these people, please do not assume that I am including you in 'everybody') seems to be fussing about the racism issue and racism issue only. It's true that it is crucial in order for us to stand as one (so to speak). But for decades, we (excluding me and those who did/do not participate) have been addressing this issue head on over and over and over again, but there is still no change. "The people have spoken", they say. I wonder why is it, then, that we are still facing the same problem? Yes, singular. I didn't make a typo or grammatical error there. There is still no change and we are still debating over the same issue. Yes, singular. ISSUE. We have not moved even an inch from where we have started decades ago, darlings. Perhaps we could try on a different, and new approach? But then again, that's just my two cents. Nobody has to agree or even take note of it. I just don't get why everybody is focusing on why the bridge is broken instead of channeling all the energy on finding the best solution to get it fixed.

"Be part of the solution. Be the change you want to see in the world."



::xoxoxo:: 3:33 AM

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Monday, October 29, 2007

Bah.


Recently a friend asked me a question, "what do you miss the most? or who?" and I couldn't answer. It just hit me then. There's no one I'm missing. Not that I am surrounded by all the people I want to be with. I just don't find myself missing anyone. Surprisingly, not even Billy. There's a void in my heart I can't even begin to fathom. For the past few weeks I've been living life on autopilot. It feels somewhat familiar. I wonder if I'd start hating everyone and everything soon. "Been there, done that".
What do I miss the most, then? In all honesty, at this moment (and for the past few weeks), just Nomol. Everything else just seems to bore me out. Bah. It's probably just the hormones talking. But I must be really whacked if it's been the hormones since the past few weeks.
I don't want to go home. I don't want to stay here either. I'd just kill myself going crazy. But there's nothing good at home. I certainly don't feel like going back to that broken place. Maybe I am running away from my problems. But what the heck. It's not even my real problem in the first place. I've been coping with it for years. Even when I don't have to. Even when I don't want to. It's bound to take a toll on me somehow. And why do I have to be responsible for other people's mess, anyway? There has got to be a law or rule for that somewhere.
For some reason, people around me seem to be keen on finding the right definition for 'Friends' and 'Friendship'. Or at least the "right" ones for them. I don't really know what my definitions are for those. Or if I even have any. I don't even know if I even care. Of course, my dear friends, all of you mean something to me. There is always something. But does it mean I have to declare it to the world? And if I refuse to do that, does it mean I don't care? Does it mean I am not a good friend? And what of love, then. It really irks me when some people insist on me placing my 'love' somewhere. On someone. Anyone. Why, may I ask? I do not really believe I am capable of loving. But even if I am, does it mean I have to justify and declare it to the world?
I don't even know how I got here. I was writing about something else, wasn't I. Bah. Whatever.


::xoxoxo:: 7:15 PM

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Saturday, June 16, 2007

Second time around


I've been doing some screen capture of two of my favorite anime: Naruto & Bleach. I've just realized recently that I've become quite obsessed (or something like that) with anime (or at least those two). I've been intending to write something about them and posts 'em beautiful pictures. Maybe I should start with the coolest guy from Bleach: Kuchiki Byakuya.

Isn't he gorgeous? He's my favourite Captain from the Gotei 13. This scene is taken from the episode (I forgot the number) when Byakuya and his vice captain, Abarai Renji went to the real world to take Rukia (Byakuya's sister) back to Soul Society - resulting in Ichigo getting seriously injured and almost died (he was saved by Urahara).

This is Kuchiki Rukia:





I haven't taken any decent picture of hers yet.. so this will have to do for now.







Next, comes Abarai Renji:



A picture of Renji with his Shikai: Zabimaru. He almost defeated Ichigo.









And finally for this opening entry, Kurosaki Ichigo. THE man of Bleach.


He was taking a leak (and Rukia was already missing - she ran away, but Ichido didn't know). I know he doesn't look like much here, but he's really strong - his father is.. was, a shinigami too. Oh, here's another one where he found Kon (a "damaged" modified soul) tied (taped, actually) to the base of the toilet bowl (eww) by Rukia =p


He kept asking Kon some questions for a while before he finally released him (poor Kon).
Well, there'll be more of them next time, I guess. Need to sort out that messy picture file (I can't find anything I want fast enuff - talk about disorganized!)

Anime deprivation level: 10/10 (=.=")
*I seriously need to get my hands on some real soon


::xoxoxo:: 5:16 PM

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